So, for anyone else out there dealing with the loss of your loved one(s), please know that you are in my prayers. I don’t know how God will heal my broken heart, but He is God. I have to believe that He is fully capable of being everything that I need right now. He is a Healer and a Comforter. He mends broken hearts. And He certainly has His work cut out with my heart.
I will miss my mom more than words could ever say. I still reach for the phone to call her. I probably will for quite some time. (I have talked to her pretty much every day since I learned to speak.) I’ll miss her laugh. I’ll miss singing her silly songs. I’ll miss watching her sleep. I’ll miss calling her to tell her which channel to watch on TV. I’ll miss her giggles and the way her eyes lit up when we brought her a surprise. (We definitely had her spoiled!) I will miss…HER.
I’m grateful for my mom’s life and that I am a part of her legacy. I’m grateful for our very special bond. I’m full of gratitude to God for giving me to her. And I’m full of tears.
Now, I just need to remind myself that it’s okay to not be okay and give myself permission to feel however I feel each day.
The Manna Chef 